Confessions of a 30 Year Old Single Woman
This is an old one, I posted it a year back in FB, felt like sharing again....
Trust me this is not a full on sob story, this is an open letter to everyone in my life.
Guys I do feel bad that I am alone, I do feel a bit let down by my slow career growth, and not even dare to discuss about the zero savings. But let me tell you a little secret these things trouble me only once in a while, they never kept me up all night, never stopped me from breathing. Someone wise once told that your present is the result of the decisions you made in the past, and I don’t regret my decisions, I enjoyed them all. Now what bother me are you, your sympathy and empathy. The way you advice, the way you ask me to compromise, the way you tell me my limits, the way you make judgments and try to convince me. At times I want to scream at you and say leave me alone, but my manners tells me to entertain you. You know what, you are just a minute distraction whom I always hear but never listen, why because it’s your damn problem not mine.
Now let me tell you the perks of being me, a normal day in my life go somewhat like this, alarm starts snoozing at 6.00 am till the time I feel like waking up. I have got the whole house to myself; I sit whatever way I feel like, sometimes upside down ;-). I may be half nude or in a burka, up to me. I cook whatever pleases my appetite, yeah no one to remind me about the calorie count. Leave for office, reach office, work hard ;-) and laugh my gut out during breaks, yeah lucky to have most awesome colleagues and a chillaxed boss. When I come back home, I am not in a rush, I have the whole time in the world to me. I may walk for hours; see the world through my own eyes, converse with my inner soul. Dinner can be anything from a cup of tea to a full plate of biriyani. Music can be rock or classic, I dance like no one is watching , watch TV if I feel like, play video games for hours, go to bed at 08.00 pm or 3.00 am, well it’s up to me. My weekend totally depends on my mood, one day I will be all social and outgoing and the other day I will be in the comfort of my bed.
Now another secret, I have got it all figured. Marriage happens when it is supposed to happen, no point in running after anyone. Career growth, have to be patient, have to put more efforts. Savings, one day soon ;-) I promise you I will be ok, don’t worry much about me, and please don’t waste your time by showing that you care, I trust you with my whole heart.
With love,
Jeyaisha John :-)
Trust me this is not a full on sob story, this is an open letter to everyone in my life.
Guys I do feel bad that I am alone, I do feel a bit let down by my slow career growth, and not even dare to discuss about the zero savings. But let me tell you a little secret these things trouble me only once in a while, they never kept me up all night, never stopped me from breathing. Someone wise once told that your present is the result of the decisions you made in the past, and I don’t regret my decisions, I enjoyed them all. Now what bother me are you, your sympathy and empathy. The way you advice, the way you ask me to compromise, the way you tell me my limits, the way you make judgments and try to convince me. At times I want to scream at you and say leave me alone, but my manners tells me to entertain you. You know what, you are just a minute distraction whom I always hear but never listen, why because it’s your damn problem not mine.
Now let me tell you the perks of being me, a normal day in my life go somewhat like this, alarm starts snoozing at 6.00 am till the time I feel like waking up. I have got the whole house to myself; I sit whatever way I feel like, sometimes upside down ;-). I may be half nude or in a burka, up to me. I cook whatever pleases my appetite, yeah no one to remind me about the calorie count. Leave for office, reach office, work hard ;-) and laugh my gut out during breaks, yeah lucky to have most awesome colleagues and a chillaxed boss. When I come back home, I am not in a rush, I have the whole time in the world to me. I may walk for hours; see the world through my own eyes, converse with my inner soul. Dinner can be anything from a cup of tea to a full plate of biriyani. Music can be rock or classic, I dance like no one is watching , watch TV if I feel like, play video games for hours, go to bed at 08.00 pm or 3.00 am, well it’s up to me. My weekend totally depends on my mood, one day I will be all social and outgoing and the other day I will be in the comfort of my bed.
Now another secret, I have got it all figured. Marriage happens when it is supposed to happen, no point in running after anyone. Career growth, have to be patient, have to put more efforts. Savings, one day soon ;-) I promise you I will be ok, don’t worry much about me, and please don’t waste your time by showing that you care, I trust you with my whole heart.
With love,
Jeyaisha John :-)
Enjoyed reading this one. Growing up in a patriarchal society where one is supposed to "get settled" at the "right age" (whatever both terms are supposed to mean), and especially so if you're a girl, I'm sure most independent free-spirited women have endured the judgemental looks/talks/advice from so-called well wishers.
ReplyDeleteAnd I agree with you to a t that being independent gives a power of choice which is worth more than a settled life. If one talks of love, it happens when it's meant to be and it is wholesome and true only if it grows and nurtures our independence and free spirit, not ties us down with do's and don'ts of the societal norms.
Thank you and you are right love is a feeling that motivate us to better ourselves daily...
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